I’m grateful for a kick ass 4th of July. The girls and I watched fireworks not only on the 4th, but on the 3rd as well. I enjoyed one on one time with my former spouse on the 3rd while the girls hung out with their friends. On the 4th, I had the pleasure of dancing to a local cover band followed by an amazing show of sparkling colors that matched an incredible musical soundtrack of patriotic and upbeat songs.

 

I’m also grateful for program and my tools of recovery. Once I left home and headed back to my crash pad, I had internal issues I needed to work on. I’m aware that I need to blog my thoughts, but I’m grateful that the physical pain that used to accompany these stories has diminished. I’m not sure if insecurities and the emotions that come with those will ever be completely dispelled (it would be so nice if they did), however, it’s a beautiful thing not to have those feelings become so overwhelming.

 

I’m grateful for my Higher Power who has given me the strength, perseverance, and the ability to manage my emotions. Little Phoenix was struggling and I was able to parent him while also knowing that He was supporting me in my time of internal conflict.

So, here I am planning on DJing this weekend at my annual retreat. The request was to have music that spans the generations and hopefully a pre-programmed set list.

 

I love all types of music and have no problem coming up with a two hour set (I actually need 8-10 hours minimum to play all my top hits).

 

The problem with having a play list already made, is that I’m not able to read the crowd. What’s the age group of who I’m playing to? What gender is most on the dance floor? Does everyone want up beat music or are they deep in conversation looking for good background music they can tap their feet to while chatting?

 

Basically, the energy of the crowd ebbs and flows. Much like relationships. Much like life. We can’t pre-program how we expect the world around us to work. We much stay present, listen, and observe.

 

Every time I plan to play, I search for songs I may not have. What are the newest hits from the different musical genres? Do I have any songs that match the theme of the event I am playing?

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Seven and a half years ago I checked myself into treatment. I struggled with my addiction and knew the only way I could help myself and my family was to become fully immersed in a recovery program. I thought I was going to be there for five weeks. It turned into thirteen.

 

The post I’m sharing today, titled Why Scientists Agree That Dancing is the Best Way to Get Fit and Live Longer, reminded me of my eighth week there.

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