A challenge I’ve always had was to be “perfect”. To be perfect meant I was not allowed to fail. I was not allowed to make mistakes. No matter what, at least give the illusion that everything in my life was flawless.
I started 2019 with that mindset. Training for a new airline and a new airplane, coupled with losing my step-mother and Godfather, on top of grieving the loss of my marriage and the inevitable divorce that was going to come before year end, I did not do any Grateful Sunday entries for three months. I mean, I wrote one sentence of what I was grateful for each week, but I didn’t have the time, nor did I have the energy or drive to write them out on my blog.
In March I went on a multi-hour trek of back dating everything I had been grateful for and giving the “illusion” online that I had kept up on my blog the entire time.
Two months later, right after we talked with a realtor to sell our home, I stopped blogging completely.
This year is different. My first Grateful Sunday entry is February 2nd. I will not back date January. I will also not force myself to have to publish every Sunday. It would be nice if I could, however, I am but one person and I have a lot of other things going on in my life. I will do the best I can and that will suffice.
I’m grateful to start this year off with less expectations, the knowledge that I will do what I can, and the peace of mind allowing what is to just be. For that is the path I am now on.
Here’s what I’m grateful for in 2020. Please join me every week and add what you’re grateful for in the comments for each week.