I’m grateful for releasing a weight off my shoulders and sharing this blog with my former spouse. I no longer feel as if I am keeping yet another secret from her. In addition, I’ve also opened the door to learn more about myself from the one person who knows me better than I do. This week has been one of deep processing and lots of connections. I’m also grateful that as I looked at my “Committed Action Worksheets” – my written New Year’s Resolutions – I see that I’m on course to following what I had planned at the beginning of the year. Now that is a first!

I’m out of the country on a business trip and when I land back in the United States my favorite baboon has left me another piece of wisdom. Sometimes he’ll send me a blog, or a newspaper article, or just a quote.

 

This time, it was a TED Talk.

 

Did you know that TED stands for Technology, Entertainment, and Design? Me either.

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I’ve noticed that it’s been hard to stay in the present these past couple of days. I’ve been thinking about my past talk with Rafiki. I’ve been rereading my blogs (including the many that I’ve yet to post).

 

My mind keeps going back to the fear about my former spouse’s response when she reads some of my past stories.

 

I struggle with the thought that my writing was wrong, that it was a mistake.

 

Ok, not the actual writing. That has been healing for me.

 

I’m struggling that it was a mistake to publish it for the world to see. That I aired my dirty laundry at the expense of my former spouse; without her consent.

 

I want to call Rafiki, but I’m a bit humbled by our last conversation. I don’t really want to go there today. I need to process some of this on my own.

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